‘Lay Down’ What?

Have you ever been confused by what exactly ‘lay it down’ means?

Lay it down I’ve finally learned is exactly that. My Pastor rejected me? Lay it down. Marriage breakup? Lay it down.

I have had a habit of controlling my emotional problems. But isn’t that a good thing you ask? Sure! If it works…

In my head, I’m capable of over-analyzing every angle. When someone upsets me, for days, months, or even years I rehash what happened over and over. I look at my side, their side, every other side I can think of. I try to look at what God’s side might be needing to understand where I went wrong and how could me, myself, or I have made a result that was fair for everyone?

And then I get down.

Doing this never brings peace. It never brings a conclusion and I’m finally learning what “laying it down” really is.

Me, Myself, and I can’t do any of this alone.

Laying it down means giving all my pain and worry to Jesus. Mentally placing my hurt at the foot of the Cross. I praise and thank Jesus for making this possible and ask God to forgive me of my judgments deserved or undeserved and renounce them. I then invite the Holy Spirit to fill the space where these judgments lived and I walk away believing it is done.

Of course, this isn’t always easy but feelings don’t matter and as long as the agenda of my heart is sincere I literally see miracles.

The key though is making sure the agenda of my heart only God can see, is true. It’s here, I see God begin to work in the lives of others involved. I see circumstances work for good. My perspective changes for the better and when I’m not looking, I wake up and realise the hurt has gone.